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Saturday, June 20, 2009

8:26 PM

1 way of Holidae is going to pass soon...
wow tats realli fast...
what have i been doin for e past 1 wk?

Hmm...basically
stay at home....
my hse became a temp childcare ctre...
it was veri lively n crowded n noisy at e same time...
but overall was enjoyable...
I realised tt wif kids around u is a diff thing...
but at times it may be gd too...

3 days were home...
1 day which was wed was out wif yt and mel...
went vivo shop shop...
was supposed to picnic n at e same time have a mini
b'dae celebration for aishah...
all e food we've already prepared them ready
who knows that at the veri last min there were changes
Aishah need go for holidae e nxt dae
so we cancel e plan n went shopping instead
but who noes tt we're actually supposed to catch
night at the museum 2 but in e end cldn't catch it on time
n decided to switch to other movies instead
but all the seats were no gd...so decided to drop tt idea...
so whole dae was juz plainly shopping at vivo only....
walk until my legs were so tired...
Haha bought things for myself too...
1) Charles n keith Heels for my biz presentation when sch starts
2) forever 21 top
3) candyempire
4) went to eat SuperDog
5) Relax at the skypark

Yeah these were e things we did...
actually the front part can be said as happi n enjoyable....
but the behind part I don't know y I just felt so left out...
Tat makes me wonder..
Maybe certain things r juz so imperfect
that i have to learn to embrace it n turn towards another direction
n to seek for more happiness myself....
I don't wish to see it change really....
Juz hope tt it won't....

Yeah then thursday, fri n todae was all working daes
Thurs was project dae 4 B law...
Managed to finish it thru..
Fri was doing B management tutorial...
Todae was doing Mac econs presentation
Then went shopping wif mum again
n ate my favourite subway melt...
Haha I seriously think that tis yr's GSS Sale
I'm participating way too much in it..
I've been buying so many things for myself recently
n my wardrobe is expanding but at the same time
I think n reflect upon myself that I should stop
Spending n splurging already!!!
I should stop goin out tat often cuz I can't resist
temptation to buy..
Yes from nw onwards Stop buying already...
I have to keep my promise towards Mum...:)

Certain things r juz meant not to be said
and kept inside e heart...

I'm sorry...
I noe that sumtimes I can be a bit sturbbon, wildful n
unreasonable...
I noe that my temper may not be gd at times...
I'll try to correct myself and think thru e ways in which I'm wrong...
I noe that I'm wrong in certain ways...
I'll try to change my temper hopefully...I'll try my best...

Tmr is Father's Day...but as usual
family dae to visit Grandma....
Haha...Grandma is so cute...Love her...
Then Mondae will be so pretty much filled wif things
Gt B law rehreasal, LMS project discussion on msn n
at nite gt 5NA Peeps BBQ cum potluck party....
Woohoo....finally someone organized a party for
all e 5NAs peeps to gather...
But still nt sure whether I'm going a nt cuz
I'll have to pack my luagge at nite...
Flying to Macau the next tues Morning....
Horray!!!
So Shall c how it goes...

Tats all....God Bless me....Gd nite...
:)

&the beauty.

7:54 PM

Hello peeps, bck to update FINALLY!!
sorri 4 e lack of updates cuz ever since
sch re-open, life has been even busier 4 me....
its kind of worse than working life...
yeah seriously alrite i shan't do any whining todae...

As usual, sch life has been v.busy
packed wif school work and projects
Was stressful in a way of another....
tat explains y my temper became bad...
but i'm trying to change n correct myself...

Then now busy with common test that is upcoming nxt wk
luckily i only have 3 modules 4 common test tis sem
took POA Common test todae
1 down, 2 more to go
left mac econs n b law...
POA CT was okay...pretty alrite...
things tt i've studied had come out...
Thank god 4 tt....:D

Haha so met up wif yt todae...
for lunch date n shopping spree....
went subway 4 lunch...
then went cotton on...
Bought 3 tops in all...cost abt 50 bucks...
then went laser flair to buy 3 VCDs....
movies...
haha wanted to get flip flops frm levis but
there's no nice ones n they r all for guys...
so drop e idea
yeah then i had an idea tt i propose to yt
we plan to holidaes come my hse 4 a gathering
me, yt, mel n aishah...
can come to my hse n watch movies...
i seriously hope 2 have a small gathering esp since
nw is goin to be our holidaes...
hope to take some time out to gather wif my frens..
seriously miss them n have so much to say...
yeah then went pasar malam....to look around...
met up wif mum aft tt at lot 1
n went to take bus to grandma hse to visit her

then shortly aft dad came to send us home...

oh ya went to limbang ytd wif christine for lunch
saw OM Lau and Vp Yeo...
juz walk past them tts all....
Christine went 4 SYF concert ytd....
wonder how was it 4 her....

Yeah aishah's b'dae is coming up...
we're thinking of plans n time to coordinate wif each other....

I hope tt common test will faster finish
n holidaes will faster come
n projects will faster end
n my macau trip will faster come as well...
realli looking forward to it....:)

Yeah tts all tt I got to sae....
buhbyee....

&the beauty.

7:37 PM

Hello peeps...
bck to update on todae...

went out wif yt todae...
we went for subway lunch and
watched a movie 17 AGAIN...
@ LOT 1....
haha...we dun wan to go far
so just choose nearby...
was supposed to watch movie and catch up with mel oso...
but in the end plans changes along the way...
okay dun wan to mention it...
the movie was overall okay...
i rate it 3 stars out of 5....

before i go out in the noon....
i cooked fried noodles for my family todae...
i was so happy
cuz i've made improvements and it turned out to be successful...
hehe....
they said that my noodles was nice....
yes i did it!!
and the egg was not burnt tis time round...haha...
i realised tat cooking for family can also be a blessful thing...
i hope tat i will have more chance in future to cook for them...:)

haiz...sad to say....
my 1 wk break is coming to an end soon...
left 2 and a half more daes before sch re-opens...
i bet everyone have the same feeling as me...
but we have to adapt to changes as and when...
i somehow feel tat tis 1 wk break is short for me...
i have been busy wrking thruout my holidae
and time passes so fast...esp when u work...
although it is a short break but at least i have a break
its better than nth...
i shld be thankful to god tat at least i have a short break...

oh ya a piece of gd news to share...
i will be going overseas to macau during my june holidae
with my family...
Woho!! Yeah so happi, excited and looking forward to tis trip...
there r so mani exciting things awaiting for me for tis trip...
it will be a 3 daes overseas trip...
we will be staying at a five star hotel whereby we can get to
see mani things....shopping included as well...
hehe i'm gonna get myself a boots...
I'm realli happi...
i felt tat as i grew older, i begin to get more things...
in terms of lyk freedom and independence and holidae....
which is gd...
i used to tink in the past why certain things i dun have...
but now slowly i began to realise tat mum is slowly giving me certain things...
i wan to be thankful of it...
I will definately take lots of photos...
will upload it when i come bck....

yeah i lyk to read inspiring bks...
recently someone recommended me tis bk...
i haven start reading but will do soon...
i'm sure u guys have heard abt who moved my cheese?

alrite gtgn....but b4 i end..i would like to quote a few sentences
from tis bk...i tink tat it's veri meaningful....

Life is no straight and easy corridor along
which we travel free and unhamoered
but a maze of passages
through which we mus seek our way
lost and confused, now and again
checked in a blind alley

But always, if we have faith
a door will open for us
not perhaps one that we ourselves
would ever have thought of,
but one that will ultimately
prove good for us....

when one door is shut, ypu tink tat there is no more hope
on earth, you felt tat tat is the end of the world, you are wrong,
god will definately open up another door for you.

&the beauty.

5:38 PM

Hi peeps i'm bck to blog....
i noe my blog is going to be dead soon...
i've been lacking updates of it recently...sorri...

Okay talk abt my last week....
it was full and was occupied with lots of stuff over the
past wkends....

Last wk, Tues, Wed and Thurs
i went for Np BAOC camp....
BAOC= Business and Accountancy Orientation Convention
it was a 3 days day camp...
Overall view of the camp....
3 words to describe, fun, new and boring at times....

Day 1,
went to the convention centre....
but before that i was walking to the atrium when i met tis 2 girls
and 1 of them so happen to be in the same grp as me...
i was lyk wow i'm realli lucky....
okay then we chatted for a short while at the atrium
then we found our grp....
after tat went to cc for some briefings and talks...
soon was bonding games at the sports court....
played some stupid games lyk one is
u muz rmb other ppl's name
then others was polar bear and hunters
and etc....
there was 1 esp that i got to run around 3 times with another partner....
so tiring and i wan panting heavily..
after tat was lunch went to makan place...
after lunch was the design flag thing...
i'm nt an artistic person...
haha so the design flag thing was consider a bit boring...
but the fun thing was when our grp leaders started playing around
with the paint and brushes that was provided....
they have this bet game thing....
they have to use the brush coated with paint to go round
their fingers 10 times....
whoever hand that is more dirty will be the loser....
winner will get to paint the loser's hand...
it was so fun and hilarious...a silly thing to do...
after tat went home...

day 2...
as usual bonding game..
got wet...
played indian poker game....
haha....it was funny...
then played truth or dare....
as our grp dun wan to go bck to cc to assemble...
the truth was realli lyk wow....thing...

day 3...
was all abt performace....
it was boring at some parts....
i want to fall asleep already..
but at least can see tat the performers put in a lot of effort...
applauses for them esp gehtto rap....
it delayed for veri long...
supposed to end at 5.45...
in the end delay...
at 6.15 still haven end...
i cannot take it ani longer...
so i decided to go....
i'm meeting for colleagues for a farewell dinner at tanglin....
so took a cab and rush there...
in the end they oso late....
it was a wonderful and memorable dinner...
we ate the chongqing steamboat....
the soup was really hot and spicy....
vilyn shared ghost stories with us...
haha it was hilarious....
the dinner started at 7 to 10pm....
after took a cab home....
no traces of cab in sign when we need them....
had to walk from tanglin all the way to far east....
we were abt to take bus cuz we give up...
in the end a cab came by....
reached home at 11pm tat nite...

Fri(10/4)
It was gd fridae....
I was invited to a gd fri event at a home in serangoon...
chin fen invited me to tis event....
at first when i entered, i felt a bit uneasy....
after that we played the wii game then we had lunch...
after lunch was bonding game, initially i kind of lyk dun wan to play
cuz veri strange....
then i gt encouraged by ms ho...so i played along wif them....
it was fun for the 2 games....
then after tat there was a movie played....
tis movie is actually abt a ex-convict and gangster....
he was in prison all time....and he did nt believe in god initially...
but ultimately he have seen wad god have realli done for him
and he turned over a new leaf and start his life anew and became a pastor now....
so it's realli a real inspiring story....
then after tat melvin shared his testimony also a real life story with us...
now i finally understand and know....
that some ppl became christians becuz they have realli seen the wonders of god
and how god has change their life and made an impact on their life...
so they chose to entrust their life in god...and jesus....
after tat was slience....
i wrote my thoughts on a piece of post it note....
and paste it on the wall....
hoping that god and jesus will bless me in wadever i do and
help me in my new journey of life...
after tat went to Vivio city with chin fen....
i also get to noe her fren who is also a teacher at another sch,
she is shi ying.
she's a nice person to noe....
went vivo shop and look around....
nth suits me all the things r so expensive and adult like....
chin fen and shi ying went on a shopping spree...
they bght quite a lot of new clothes....
went home late also....
10+ left vivo....
reached home at 11+....

those 2 nites i've been goin out quite late...
hehe....

then sat i went bck to work...
it was my last dae of work...
i was supposed to teach the new guy all the stuff and
pass on all my work to him....
i spent 2 hrs coaching him....
my throat was veri dry then....
although i spent 2 hrs coaching him, but i dun tink i have tell him all
the things....
but nvm ultimately certains things he have to learn and explore himself....
he cannot expect ppl to coach him every single thing...
initially when i first started,
i also learnt along the way and pick up a lot of things by myself...
so i tink it's only fair tat he learn certain things himself and not
expect ppl to spoonfeed him....
i recevied an sms from him on mon...
ask me abt some work stuff....
but i felt tat since i have already left work, i'm nt obliged to
tell him the things anyway someone there will noe....

after work on sat, took train bck and meeting mum at lot 1 after ky's tuition...
while shopping around, i met sarah and her fren ellias at cotton on...
haha me and her fren realli click veri well....
we had a nice chat and lunch tgth....
realli happi to noe her...
stayed at mac for coffee with mum they all...
after tat went to cwp....
saw my ex-colleague they all...
happi to see clara again...
we bought necklance and bracelet at mini bits....
spent 50 over and we became member...
went bck to lot 1 to da bao subway home....
and tats it....

sundae stayed at home to do housework....
was supposed to go and visit ah ma....
but in the end was lazy to go out and i want to watch my shows...
so stayed at home the whole dae...
watched campus superstar halfway and fell asleep...zzz....

mon, wed and todae slacked at home....
then tues went bck to Np with christine
to do my top up software thing and to collect s&w t-shirt...
a bit paiseh at the topup workshop there...
only me alone....
but it was over...
then went bck to lot 1 to meet yt to go bck to kss to collect cert...
finally collected my cert....
went into staffroom saw mrs chan, mr ashley tan, miss lim leck lee and mr chua...
haha was happi to see them again...
then went limbang buy bread and home....

tmr will be meeting yt for movies and subway lunch...
i noe how she feels...
she's angry and disappointed tat this is alwaes happening
again and again....
i'm also at a loss...
dunno wad to do....
is this going to be carried on?
I dunno....

Alrite shall end here...
buhbyee....

&the beauty.

3:01 PM

Hello peeps....
bck to update on my happenings recently...
tis wrk was a busy wk 4 me....
phew! Luckily gt my wrkends for me to rest.....
physically and mentally....
it was veri busy due to wrk again....
came bck veri late on fri nite...
reached home at 10.30pm....
went to bugis NLB for ot for a nutritional therapy talk...
haha although can earn extra $$ but it is hard wrk and tiredness....
imagine i need to take train home all the way frm bugis....
wearing heels...
luckily there's seat on the train...hehe...
thank god...for that...
for this wk, i ot 2 days out of 5....which is consider okay...
i tink wad my fren said is true....
i agree....i tink i shld realli stop wrking already
b4 my sch starts...
or else i will nt have the drive, motivation or energy to start sch afresh...
Yesterday was 清明节。。。
it is a traditional day where the chinese will pray to their ancestors and
clear the grave....
I was supposed to go yrd but in the end was super too tired and have headche and
backache all over on sat morning...so didn't go...

Met up wif yt for dinner last nite at lot one food court...
we chatted and walked around to shop...
even though it may be a short meal and juz meeting up for a few hrs...
at least i can feel tat the both of us r making the effort to maintain
our friendship which is gd...
Frens r realli impt in our life....
they cheer u up whenever u're down....
they will stand by u in times of trouble...
they will share the happy times wif u as well....
haha....
oh ya i've taken some photos on the NLB and the gathering to amk hub last mth
wif yt...
was too busy so didn't have the time to upload..
will upload the amk hub ones 1st....
the nlb one will be ltr...

oh ya b4 i upload the photos....
nxt wk will be an exciting wk 4 mi..
cuz no need to wrk for 5 daes...
onli need to wrk for 1 and a half dae....
the rest is go Np orientation camp for BA students...
Haha i'm proud to be Np BS student...
so hopefully i will have fun during the camp
and can get to meet more new frens....
Stay Positive and look forward!! =)
Smile alwaes!

Haha we went to eat a mini high tea @ New York New York Amk....
Looks nice rite the waffle with choco ice-cream!
Yummy it was a marvelous meal...

&the beauty.

9:13 PM

Hi ppl, i'm bck...
will update what i've been doing....
still the same as usual busy working everydae...
this wk gt to work another 1/2 more dae which is todae sat...
i wrk work 5 and a half daes....
onli gt 1 and a half dae to play and rest and enjoy....
this wk was nt a gd wk for me....
stress and fretting over my work....
then also some issue with my work which i dun wan to mention here....
but through my work and experience, i noe wad is hardship and i noe
how it "taste like" when u work in the real working outside world...
but is becuz of this precious wrking experience, it made me learn
and grow at the same time which is gd for me...
learn to respect others and be more professional no matter which identity are you
nxt wk gt to ot again....
haiz...

March is coming to an end soon....
oh Dear!
wad to do?
Sch is going to start in April soon...
kind of not fully 100% prepared yet...
many of my colleague said that i'm veri sociable and friendly...
they sae i definately can go out and meet ppl...
but inside my heart somehow sometimes i will feel a bit uneasy
and uncomfortable having myself to adjust to a new environment...
but i alwaes tell myself tat
life is just lyk tat....
at diff pt of ur life, u gt to adjust certain things...
i tried to comfort myself by telling myself tis..
"加油你一定行得，不要感到害怕，勇敢地去面对和偿式，
世上无难事，只怕有心人”
I realli feel tt time passes so fast...
March is going to end soon...
another new mth is coming....
i dunno whether shld i be optimistic or pessimistic....
how i iwsh that time could freeze everything....
that i have now...
nth much to say nw...
will share my deeper thoughts the nxt time..
buhbyee....

&the beauty.

9:04 PM

Hey I'm bck to update for this March...

I'm still busy working everydae...
my wkends r reserved for my family n myself...
work is still fine so far so i wldn't talk much abt it...

I will just be sharing some tots todae...
Everyone needs a few pillars in their life...
For me, i have pillar of support from my family now...
but i somehow feel tat i am still not satisfied in my life...
my pillar of friendship is going down...
ever since all of us graduated, my frens and I hardly meet up
with each other....
and we dun keep into contact with each other animore...
I am wondering why is all tis happening....
all the promises that was made previously was not kept...
Maybe i should believe the saying, "Never believe in the promises
that others give you cuz 9 out of 10 will not fulfil their promises to u"...
Not only tat, I somehow feel that I'm a loner....
I feel so empty inside my heart although mentally I am busy occupied with work...
sometimes i use work to fill the empty space in my heart...
I juz dun wish to tink so much..
I scared once i start thinking, my tots will be deepened.
The more i think, the more scared i will be....
I really feel like i'm a loner...
on wkdaes i will be busy wrking then after wrk i will go straight home
cuz was veri tired...
on wkends i wan to relax myself a bit but i juz cldn't find
any shopping buddies or cafe buddies to go out wif me...
so mostly i go out wif my family...
luckily last wk my exercise buddy went out wif me..
I'm wondering wad have everyone been doing..
I think i have quite an endurance...
have been wrking for abt 3 mths already....
but i'm statisfied wif my wrk at present....
but i just somehow feel empty in my heart...
maybe the pillar of love and care hasn't been built up yet...
somedae wadever will come will come...
i alwaes believe in fate....

this wkend i'm also quite at a loss of wad to do..
but i've already planned it out already...
gt to go window shopping again by myself...
i'm gonna get a new slippers, a new skirt and a nice bk to read tis wkend..
shopping freak...
sundae will be my family dae...
haiz...sometimes in life
u can't expect much frm it...
wadever will be will be...

maybe due to my loneliness or stress, sometimes i will have mood swing...
just like todae....
but whenever i have a nice bk to read, my mood will be gd...

nxt wk will also be a busy wk 4 me...
gt to do the online registration np thing,
gt to settle bills, gt to grab a laptop...
gt to go bck to sch for the prize giving ceremony thing...
a bit anxious n nervous since i have not gone bck to sch 4 a long time...

Hope tat nxt wk will be a better wk 4 me....
Good nite peeps...

&the beauty.